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2008-09-04T09:01:00.000-04:00

Hmm. How do you know when ends?

well, you don't. You just keep moving on. It's part of life. I mean, you stumble, you fall, you break some, you heal, you get back up. I'm young, I have a lot ahead of me. I do my job, enjoy, repeat. It was a stupid move for me to make that mistake of falling. but it will always happen. If it didn't, how should I learn? but I did love him though. oh well. there will always be another one around. hopefully, one that wouldn't be leading me on and then drop! haha. besides, he cared about what other people think too much. he cared about how he'll look like instead of thinking about himself. I can't do that. I WANT to be myself no matter what other's may think. It's my business and my life in the end.honestly, I knew it was coming, and I knew I shouldn't have stayed longer, but I can't make that decision. people get the wrong idea that you chose who to fall for. nah-uh. no you don't. but its all part of the game. and you know what, the decision you make is how your going to handle the outcome. I think I handled it pretty good. we'll see, i mean, I did handle it pretty good for the past hour.:)

WEEKEND

2008-08-03T21:00:00.003-04:00

FSI was great! awesome, awesome kids. I'm planning on being a counselor next year. Also maybe running for student government position. we'll see. Don't wanna get TOO busy.

He stayed on campus that friday night then left for Nags Head the next day. I'm not going to see him for 7 days:(

WHYY SOO SEEERiOUS?

2008-07-28T22:36:00.002-04:00

We went to the aquarium last friday:) awesome time. watched Batman: The Dark Knight. The aquarium was good. most of it was under construction-_-.

Anyways, so how's life ehh? well, same old thing. same old problem. heck, I'll just let it run its course right. see what happens. too bad I hate waiting for nothing.

Keep moving

2008-07-08T21:22:00.003-04:00

It won't be corrected right after the first. It might take 2 or even three of the same mistakes before you learn.

At first I thought it was just fun and games, get back in the field and get to know other people. but after a while, i was vulnerable. It wasn't the same as before. I never noticed that I'd be hurt by something so small he might accidentally say or do. I thought I'd be undeafeated, indestructible. yet I was wrong. Do I love him? Is it too early? Should I let it pass and move on? to just "wait and see"?

One lesson I learned so far: there is no such thing as first and last love. thats when you learn your lesson; its when your first love dies. Yet the bright side is, that the next one you fall for will always be better. you will feel more secure, smarter, more ambitious, more hopes and expectations. On the other hand, he may have been through the same path as you had. which makes it harder for both of you. because neither of you will know if you really are for each other. You will just wait or give up and think it's happening all over again. Be afraid of commitment and foretell that it'll be another failure. Waiting will get you nowhere either. I say hope for the best. speak up. let him know. Its better to open up than to have a burden your whole life thinking, "I wonder how that would've turned out to be.."

Hopes and expectations

2008-07-07T21:31:00.005-04:00

never expect anything from anyone. Always expect the unexpected. First mistake: love means a lot more than a four letter word; someone can make it or break it. whether its your worst enemy, or that one person.

Hope will always occur; but never hope for anything way over your head especially if its a one way situation. Be the unforgettable person and let it run its course. move on. if its meant to be, it's meant to be.

Never say what you don't want and what you hate, but rather say what you are really searching and aiming for.

GOBLET FAVORS

2008-06-26T22:41:00.002-04:00

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2008-06-10T22:24:00.003-04:00

AHH, Its so weird having all this time! I believeI need a second job. I'm trying to get back on my eBay and of course the blogging to have some extra cash. I still have my work schedule when I had school. but since i'm out of school, I have so much time in the morning that I feel like I'm wasting. So I'm trying to find a second job that can fill me in the morning but then will work out with my afternoon job at the same time.

ANYWAYS..

We went to Harborfest this weekend. It was nice, but it was burning up that night! Also, we're going camping this July with my uncle and his family up in DC.

Pleeaseeee help me keep in track of this blog.

Time flies by when your having fun

2008-06-04T20:44:00.003-04:00

OH my goodness, its JUNE!:)

California's a blurr this summer. It's okay, it'll be worth it! I'll be working my butt off to save some green. PLUS might go to connecticut to visit my tita Lizzie for a week.

Anyways, Tomorrow's going to be a grad practice. Then I might drop by the senior grad party. I dunno. I kinda have plans for something else tomorrow^_-

Then friday, i'm graduating! excited!

Harborfest this weekend!! can't wait!!

UPDATES

2008-04-22T19:26:00.003-04:00

ugh. it has been tough lately. new things start to emerge and I want to be part of it. Some, however, has been dragging me down and to the point where I can't do anything about it. ahh! help, help. take me away!

Anyways, happy:) I'll be leaving for DC this Thursday, an overnight trip. I'm excited! My party's this saturday too. unfortunately, i heard it was gonna rain. hmph. its a luau so it wouldn't make any sense if it did:(

YUM!

2008-04-13T20:59:00.002-04:00

I made my triple chip cheesecake tonight^_^ yes, I am a fatty. I plan to have a luau themed party on the 26th. Nothing big, just applying my decoration skills from work. hahaha. I'm also practicing on making sushi and authentic stir fry foods. I want to perfect an unagi. It's so hard to find the ingredients tho. Anyways, my uncle's still the best at making cakes. He's going to make me a strawberry shortcake and a carrot cake for my bday. yay!=)

Updates

2008-04-12T21:46:00.003-04:00

Graduation's a month away=)

Recently, I've been visiting , ODU. super excited to graduate! Unfortunately, I won't be able to visit my lola and lolo this summer. My lola had a heart attack, and I really wanted to visit her. I'm letting my mother go instead. Anyways, I'll be working fulltime this summer. I received my financial award letter from ODU, however, I will still have a balance of $3000. Soo, I have to work for that too. I bought a beautiful dress from http://www.rubyrox.com/

My 18th birthday's coming up! I'll be celebrating it on the 26th at my place. food, family and friends. But day after that, friends and I will be celebrating it a different way. haha. that week's gonna be hectic. I'll also be going to DC that thursday/friday for an overnight trip. what what, (in the butt) ^_^

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2008-03-21T22:31:00.000-04:00

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2008-03-16T20:06:00.003-04:00

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2008-03-01T23:24:00.002-05:00

MY EMILY

UHH.

2008-02-28T12:34:00.009-05:00

I've been sick for the past week. I have the flu so I haven't really been going to my classes. I try to catch up though. I hate being sick because I can't focus on anything. Hopefully it'll go away soon. oh! and Dog's birthday is coming up soon! I wanted to make him a party but it would be on a weekday. It's on March 5th. Anyways, I'm bringing him to the pet salon, get him some goodies, and make him his favorite treat recipes from Three Dog Bakery

NEW RiDE

2008-02-25T21:59:00.001-05:00

2004 BMW SUV=)

...

2008-02-24T22:08:00.009-05:00

maybe because I'm sleepy, but come to think of it,
how did I get to where I am right now?

I have made many mistakes in my life, but I regret none of them
Here I found the true happiness
and the endless possibilities I can have a grip on
For past can no longer haunt me as long as I have faith

Like they say, Faith before Fear.
My whole insight on the purpose of my life is to guide others,
especially family,
into finding that purity all over again
I am proud to say that the young person I have known for the past 17 years
has changed dramatically
College is only a page in the book of my life,
but the faith I have earned for the past year is a huge chapter.

I was walked through the worst nightmares by my faith
and so,
I laugh at temptations that gather around me
because in God,
I know I can conquer anything.

PROM DRESSES

2008-02-24T20:56:00.004-05:00

maybe baby?
haha. 10 more lbs.. 10 more.

GOAL: I HAVE TO look like the girl to buy the dress.

Think positive, think positive.

long time, no blog

2008-02-23T21:34:00.002-05:00

man. I haven't blogged in a while.

Well, we went to California Pizza Kitchen. I started my "no meat" again.
So anyways, I decided to just take back the Scion XA and let my parents buy SUV that they want. also, I need to keep applying scholarships for college. I want to go to Old Dominion University, but tuition is ridiculous. My mom's employer, however, might be able to hook me up for the workstudy program if I decided to go it.

=)

2008-01-27T20:01:00.000-05:00

OKAY.

I'm waiting for the fullride scholarship letter from ODU. I'm suppose to receive it this February 1st. AHH! I'm praying that I will get it. If I don't, I know God has better plans for college in the future=)

10 Things I Hate About You

2008-01-22T20:20:00.000-05:00

R.I.P. Heath Ledger=(

EBAY!

2008-01-17T21:08:00.000-05:00

okay so I bought this new workout DVD. haha. hopefully it works! I started doing it three days ago. as you can see, that's why I haven't had time to blog. haha. Anyways, now all I need to do it work on the food consumption part! hahaha. REALLY, REALLY, work on it.

Also, I made $200.00 on ebay! yay! We're going to Maryland this weekend. It's snowing there right now and is currently 3 feet tall! Dog's coming with me. I need to buy some of those white squishy ball things with sweet peanuts inside that Aibahn wants. haha.

AHH!

2008-01-14T19:42:00.000-05:00

exams next week! urgh. it's okay, I get 3 half days anyway:)
-my back hurts.

THE POSITIVE SIDE OF LIFE:)

* Living on Earth is expensive,
but it does include a free trip
around the sun every year.

*How long a minute is
depends on what side of the
bathroom door you're on.

*Birthdays are good for you;
the more you have,
the longer you live.

* Happiness comes through doors you
didn't even know you left open.

*Ever notice that the people who are late
are often much jollier
than the people who have to wait for them?

* Most of us go to our grave
with our music still inside of us.

* If Wal-Mart is lowering prices every day,
how come nothing is free yet?

*You may be only one person in the world,
but you may also be the world to one person.

* Some mistakes are too much fun
to only make once.

*Don't cry because it's over;
smile because it happened.

*We could learn a lot from crayons:
some are sharp, some are pretty,
some are dull, some have weird names,
and all are different colors....but
they all exist very nicely in the same box.

*A truly happy person is one who
can enjoy the scenery on a detour.

PEARL HARBOR

2008-01-12T23:14:00.000-05:00

UHH, the love triangle ruined the movie. haha. it even made me eager to join the airforce though!

FiXED

2008-01-11T23:20:00.000-05:00

Work is pretty good so far. I've been busting my butt though because Betty mentioned another race for me if I show her my "leadership" to other employee(s). It's pretty tough to get myself busy though this time of the year because it's been really slow. But she said by the time Mardi Gras, Valentine's Day, and St. Patrick's day, it'll be like christmas sales again!

CARPE DIEM!

2008-01-10T21:21:00.000-05:00

PAYDAY TOMORROW! YAY!

So um, Ebay is paying for my senior dues in Granby. haha. So far, I'm selling perfumes, wallets, some emblems from my dad and a harajuku purse that I got a long time ago. Ebay's the bomb!

So I'm looking at tickets online for San Diego and the Philippines this June. EXPENSIVE. especially when I'M paying for it. uhh so many things going on this year. graduation.. vacation.. college.. car.. 18th birthday..(yay).. I can tell it'll be a great year.

SWEET

2008-01-09T23:00:00.000-05:00

Which one with you choose?

The right way?
or the smart way?

John Mayer: Slow Dancing In A Burning Room

Pi

2008-01-07T20:58:00.000-05:00

SO I'm planning to go to the philippines this June. I'm asking it for my 18th birthday:) I miss my family back there. I grew up with them most of my life so they mean a lot to me. Especially my grandparents. I now realize how much they've done for me when and I was a baby and growing up:) I'm super excited 'cause I'm going to surprise them this year! Also, I have a lot of cousins in my mom's side. and I'm the second to the oldest one so I'm planning to take them all out when I go there. Hopefully, I've saved money by that time:)

I'm doing this new fusioncash. It gives me a little extra money for everyday expenses. haha. I started this new budget system and hopefully it works!

HMM

2008-01-06T12:31:00.000-05:00

what I realized from church this morning:

I need to thank him more often:)

HEY

2008-01-06T00:52:00.001-05:00

do something productive while your on the computer.

earn cash like I do.

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HAiRCUT

2008-01-05T20:00:00.000-05:00

Ok, I got a haircut today:)

Didn't really do much. Went to Regis salon in Mcarthur Mall. I'm selling on Ebay again. Check it out!

http://myworld.ebay.com/stuffngo

CRUNCHY CALiFORNiA

2008-01-04T21:56:00.000-05:00

Okay, so I got my job schedule changed. Now I work wednesdays and have fridays off for myself^_^ besides, we are SUPER slow this time of the year. literally, like 5 people come in dring my 8-hour shift. It's terrible. but anyways, I still get paid! hahaha. it's all about the money.

I also filed my FAFSA today for college. THAT was a pain. It's not even done yet! It's worth it though because it saves me thousands of money. The government ends up granting me $5000 off from my pocket money. whatever's left, or EFC (expected family contribution), will be the only one I'll have to worry about. I'm praying to have my college eventually be fully paid for.

if I get the full scholarship, I'm planning to buy a car/SUV that I really want. Either, a Mazda Miata or a Nissan Xterra. Besides that will be a big load off my parents' back.

Tonight we went to SOYA!!:) They know us there so well they even remember what we get. haha. of course, the original Unagi and Crunchy California^_^

oh yah, I got this Nine West bag today at Mcarthur Mall
*it may look black but it's more of dark dark dark purple. lol.

RESOLUTiON

2008-01-01T16:37:00.000-05:00

NEW YEAR RESOLUTiONS

Ok, so it'll still be the ongoing non-stop dream of losing weight. haha.

Eat more fruits and vegetables..

easy on the fried foods and sweets..

exercise!

Save more money

invest more on Ebay (Haha)

payoff my car by the end of this year

FOOD!

2007-12-30T22:21:00.000-05:00

okay, we're doing non-stop cooking tonight. We'd always cook tons of food every New Year's Eve, but then it'll only be the three of us for the night. This year, however, my dad has duty New Year's Eve. So I just bought me and my mom some matching horns, tiaras, blowouts and poppers haha.

I'm making Chocolate Mousse Marble Cake by the way:)

UGH. I have work tomorrow! Since Nicole is leaving, I have a feeling that Betty is going to make me work everyday again. I can't do that anymore because I get too tired. I don't understand why she cant get a full-time associate already! anyways, I don't want to lose that job, I'm trying to earn another race:) hahaha.

ROLE MODEL

2007-12-29T23:07:00.000-05:00

I did it! I went to Victoria's secret's semi-annual sale today!:) got some stuff of course. We ate dinner at Qdoba, a mexican restaurant. They have great food. He liked it but I still think Mochismo is better and authentic. Maybe I'll bring him there one time so he would know the difference. Anyways, how am I suppose to lose weight if all we do is try these different styles, and cuisines of restaurants here in Hampton Roads?! haha. That's actually in my dream list, an upperclass style restaurant/bar/bistro. More like our favorite bistro, SOYA! yess..

Bummer. Nicole is leaving in two days. I really liked her because she is a great person. She's 24 years old but she's been through many things in life but she still manages to think positive and have faith. She wants to be a teacher when she comes back in June. and I believe that she'll be a great role model and inspiration to many of her future students:)

YYEESS!

2007-12-28T21:40:00.000-05:00

The Victoria's Secret semi-annual sale is back! I've been waiting for it! I'm heading to the mall tomorrow!:)

I've been working my butt off this past couple of days.. I need to save some money for this coming summer. I'm planning to go to the Philippines. Hopefully, this time it will actually happen.

My good friend Nicole is leaving to study abroad in France for 6 months. Her flight will be on January 2nd. I'm going to miss her at work!:(

hahaha. I found the weirdest thing today. I got this bag from a relative and we saw in the pocket that it has a pen with a tape wrapped on the end, a carbon paper, and a small clear bag of dried leaves. I totally bet it's marijuana. hahaha. My dad thinks it is too so he flushed it down the toilet. My mom is trying to convince me that it's tea.. She got this authentic tea from the internet and she's making me smell it to compare to the weed. Pretty funny:) hahaha.

DiET?

2007-12-27T19:44:00.000-05:00

Soo.. Diet? haha. I'm trying the Special K challenge, hopefully it will work again. and hopefully I'll have the patience and self control to do it. haha. but it worked last year though! I lost 20 pounds in 1 month.. my goal? 10 POUNDS BY APRIL 2008.

oh! I negotiated with my dad about the car. I VANT A 240SX! YUMM.. I'm excited. I'm getting a car loan 'cause my parents won't pay for it. They said they will help me with the insurance but not the monthly payments. Hopefully, I'll still be able to work while I'm in college.

Oh and belated happy monthsary love. I forgot^_^ oops.

MiSTAKE!

2007-12-26T17:32:00.000-05:00

UGH.

I didn't know that when you cancel your Google Adsense that you also cancel your blogger account! haha. so yah, here it is. The new one. Which means I have to start my 3 month countdown again.